My life has been sucking like a vampire lately. I tried to find various reasons for it. Job. Missed out MBA colleges. My un-returned guitar. Reasons ranging from bad movies that won oscars to my wounded leg to a world that sucks. But now that i see it, isnt it plainly simple. She is gone. Forever. She told me once. That somethings are never meant to be. I was adamant. I didnt listen to her. I tried. And failed. So this is how it feels. To give up on someone you love. I've had "girl friends" before. But she was the first that I truly cared and loved.
I wish i could tell her how much stuck Iam with her. How I always think about what she would say to this and to that and smile to myself. How I crave for her in the nights. To hold her and whisper to her that everything is alright now. That I would be all that she would need and more. How I would be my very best so that she can get the best. How I wish to hear her laughter, always with a pinch of sarcasm.
I know she needs me. And I need her more than she realizes. Yet all i can do is sit here and type this. And hope that one day when I look back on this, I wont regret that I couldn't find the strength. Somethings are never meant to be. And maybe that is why they are bitter sweet. Unfulfilled Love.
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