Im at an important cross roads in my life now. On one side I have APPSC, which if i get through, i'll get to be a corrupt government official who has loads of time for his family and his recreations whatever the hell they are. And on the other side I have CAT. If i get through to this, i'll get to be a uber busy manager of sorts who has no private life at all, whose wife thinks he ignores her but i get to be honest and tax paying.
Looking at these two options, I'm baffled. Why can't I have two at the same time? You can say, if you want to you can, but im talking about normal people. And im a very normal guy. So torn between these two roads, I know which one i'll take. But it scares me a lot. What if I'm wrong? What if I reach the end and regret the decision made? What if the other way is the right way? I read somewhere that the price of freedom is high, as high as that of slavery itself.
But silly quotations and mind battering 'advises' dont matter. What matters is that for now, i dont know no other way. This is the way i have always choosen. I may regret it in the end. I may lie down in the end defeated and wondering why I always choose the hard way out. But that is no reason to give up now. Now i have blood flowing in my body and good sense in my head. And I will stand as long as I can. God help me.
